Its been 2 years since I wrote something here.
I've met many wonderful people, seen things I've ever seen before, experience the unexpected, and laugh at what I wrote in online. TBH, who was that; don't answer that.
So, I met somebody, which I thought could be the road to a blissful life.
Let's call that somebody, SB.
Well, there were still few things that are missing, I must be out of my mind to think that it could be .. you know, blissful.
At least, I wasn't sure if I am in love, at least my brain is still around. But, HOLD ON, the way I was treated, he sounds so not like a next mistake, are they even guys like this out there?
Oh yes, I do remember. Mr.2012, you do the unexpected, hmm thanks?
Back to SB, guess what? YOLO, let's put SB in a test, we call it the unofficial relationship. A-ha-ha.
Few weeks later, SB being little suspicious. Well, SB begged me, okay SB, promise to never delete anything, and sing me a song then I'll give u another chance. Oh my, you did it SB! AWWW, I'M just gonna blind myself, forget about those suspicious things, cause' maybe I'm just thinking too much, HEHE. Cause like, not everyone is like MR.2012, SB is new to this, so SB is different, hehe.
8 months later, SB, you did the unexpected. I felt empty, haven't I learn my lesson? Mr.2012, you taught me well, didn't you? Why SB Why, I never see that coming, or I choose to not see it. If only I knew it earlier...
SB explained, he said it wasn't real, just fooling with fakers. Oh okay, well, promise me you won't do this again.
I promise, said SB.
5 months later, what is this SB? You promised me, right?
I am sorry, its a habit, I need more time, said SB.
Hmm, I guess I'll be the "Love Hero", I believe you.
As times goes by, we fight, a lot. It felt like I was taken advantage of.
SB changed, I told SB that.
SB said, everyone change.
I started to lose myself.
I felt like, I had to be somebody else in order to make this work.
Friends and Google told me, don't waste your time on somebody who does not respect you, is time to move on.
I didn't have that courage.
I changed, a lot, I break my own rules, I change to somebody that I don't even know.
I don't like me anymore. I want to move on, but I am afraid. I was desperate for help.
So recently, I met a cool friend.
Let's call that cool friend "CF".
I then somehow had the courage to move on.
TBH, CF IS SUPER DUPER INTERESTING, I CAN'T WAIT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT CF!!!!
I am so glad that we met! I start feeling like me, is like I can be me!
EVERYTHING was all good, that's what I thought.
but CF is tryna tell me that, this is a forbidden friendship.
I have a lot of questions in my head.
WHY CF? What is wrong? Does it has to be this way? Is it there is something wrong with me?
That feeling when you felt like everything was fine, but it's not, you just don't know why, you can't do anything.
I was left hanging.
