Somewhere to pour my feelings out..

"IT’S ABOUT MEETING SOMEONE YOU REALLY LIKE, BUT THIS PERSON BECOMES CLOSED OFF TO YOU"-Bebe Rexha

He gave me another reason to not put my heart out,

But he also give me more reasons to be strong enough to love.

He shows me why I should make sure my defence doesn't becomes an offence to those that could bring light into my life.

THE PATH IS NOT GIVING UP ON LOVE.
BUT TO FIRST GIVE UP ON THOSE WHO DOESN'T WANT YOU.

I was upset and feeling dark, and a lot of these post are just about me growing up, trying to love myself and understand relationships.

I still am.

I needed a hero, so I became one.

No matter what comes across,
I'll keep going, till I see the light.
One day, I'll be able to tell my story.
I'll inspire others.
I'll be the living proof.
I will love, like I've never been hurt. 

We are not broken, just bend.

We had a good run,
Guess it turns out you lost a good one.
But I'm wishing every morning would come with you next to me.
Though I could still feel you in my heart.

And when I think about your touch,
I don't know how long I can wait.

Just a touch of your love is enough to knock me off of my feet.

Even the best fall down sometimes,
Even the stars refuse to shine.
Let me be that place where you run,
Instead of the one that you're running from..

I know that you had to fall, 
I can't hide you from all of it. 
But no matter what, you know you can always run back to my arms. 

The thought of us being together in future still hasn't left my mind. 
Now I'm left with the words you used to say.
If you let us, this time we canmake it right. 

SOS

You know it will hurt, but you do it anyway out of curiosity.

You don't even know why you wanna put yourself in this position.

Is that stupidity or bravery?

You don't even know why you feel the way you feel.

You don't even know why you take it so personal.

You know its unreasonable, but you don't know how to stop this feeling.

It just hurts, but you can't do anything, you're helpless.

All you can do is just hope that this feeling will just fade away.

But you know its gonna be there.

Your heart just feels so heavy.
You feel like you can't handle it anymore.
Or maybe you just don't want to handle it.

Still hoping

Have you ever been so scare to fall, and that nobody will catch you?

Have you ever want something so bad, but you're too afraid to get it.
You're scare that it could be bad for you.

Would you want to believe that there is someone out there who would never give up on you?

Can you watch them hurting from the other side of the wall?
Can you just sit there, and hope that they will break down your walls, just so you know they are worth it?
Does that makes you another heartbreaker?

Is there any other ways to know if someone is worth it?
What if they are worth it, do you think you deserve them?

You are guarded.
But you fall anyway, regardless if they catch you or not.

Can you still love with your entire heart without fear?

Will you still be able to handle another break up?

Because of them, you learned.
Because of them, your past is ruined.

Sometimes you question the worthiness of these lessons.

Time heals?

I keep telling myself time heals, but at times I got impatience..

I just broke down.
I just want to give up,  but I keep telling myself, to survive is to keep breathing.

But it's so hard.
It's getting harder to breathe,
Especially when there are tears in your eyes.